Holiday Break

This holiday break has been quite the experience for me. I have learned alot about myself and what areas I need to grow in. It has been rough but worth going through. I know God is preparing me for his work and I keep learning from my mistakes. I know now that it is better to see my mistakes and to go on than to just continuely condemn myself for them. I will never move on if I am always looking back on the things I have done wrong. I have to push myself to see the mistake as an opportunity to grow and do better next time instead of another reason to try to prove God wrong in calling me to do anything for Him. God knows more than anyone else what He is doing and He knows me better than I know myself. So I'm going to strive to stop holding myself back from God's blessings and calling and just believe He can do it! Its not about me, its about Him who lives in me! I am just a willing vessel trying to be obedient to the will of God by dying to myself everyday.

God can use anyone

So i don't have very much time to do a blog but i just wanted to say just this little bit. I have always known through reading the scripture that God can use anyone, but it wasn't until I actually saw it happen in my life i really believed it. He can use people dispite what they are going through, because in the end it is not about you in the first place. So I know this is something most people already know or have heard in one point in their life if they have been christian for long, but I don't think anyone really realizes how true it is until it God actually uses them to do something beyond their own ability and despite whatever hurts or struggles they are going through in life. I will probably elaborate on this later when I have more time, but this has been on my heart and mind alot lately and I just had to get it out.

Take time to have fun!

This is Mark and Chris. We took a little break in the walmart parking lot during our amazing race at the beginning of the year. We had a blast!

Everyday adventures...

So I arrived at the dream center this morning for church thinking by chance this would be a normal day. That is funny because there are no normal days at the dream center that is what i love about the place. So anyway I get there and we have a waterfall coming down in multiple places in our back building. The sanctuary side has a new rood so it was fine but the other building has not been fixed yet and it rained all day yesterday. So anyway the roof is leaking majorly in the room above the kitchen. Man, I just realized I should have taken a picture. So that is what we did an hour before church started was mop and shop vac up all the water on the floor and put trash cans where it was pouring down. We have other leaks in odd places as well with water stedily coming down. The roof guy is suppose to come tomorrow, so pray that he comes and he actually starts working on it instead of just coming and looking at it. That building does alot throughout the week and it is still just the beginning of the many things to come. I hate to see it like that. Anyway I know God has it covered I mean He is the one got the building in the first place. It is all good. So on the to do list for this week wash all the towels that were used today in drying up rivers of water. WOO WHOO!!!! I love what I get to do and I don't mean that sarcastic at all. I truly love what I get to do everyday! I hate the normal, I would go crazy in a normal setting whatever that might be. Alright that is it for now. Hey 3 posts in a row thats pretty good. Sorry I don't have any pictures of today it is just not the first thing you think of when you see a waterfall coming down inside. :) At least I don't.

I know this Long over due. But this was during the Hurricane. We were at the dream center. Not only did we run a shelter for a nursing home and assisted living patients we also painted Donna's office! We had alot of fun at the Dream Center as you can see in this picture. God did some amazing things during that week and a half there. It was my first time ever doing shift work for security! I will never forget that time in my life when God got me safely out of a hurricane not the one going on outside but the one going on inside of me. He is faithful and He knows where you are.

Its been awhile....

Have really been through alot this year in the internship already. I don't ever write on here anymore because so much is happening in my life its hard for me to gather thoughts to write about just a smidgen of what is going on. But I am trying to get back in the habbit of writing blogs. Because I don't know where I am going to be next year and I want to have something for people to find out what I am doing and what kind of things God is doing through me.

So I guess I will just start with the most recent big thing. It was the thanksgiving outreach. I loved it! The part I loved was actually getting back testimonies before the outreach was even over. I also loved being actually a part of the delieveries 2 days after the outreach. The interns got to deliver to families that didn't get any that registered late. It was great opportunity to be able to go to familes and hand them a thanksgiving meal for them to be able to cook on thanksgiving for their family. The best part about that was being able to pray for them. There was not one family that turned us down when we asked could we pray for them for anything. One lady even prayed for us after we got done praying for her. I love where God has me. I still can't believe how amazing He is and how he can use someone like me dispite MYSELF. He still gets the glory.

Over 400 familes were delieverd a thanksgiving dinner!! In less than 3 hours i might add.... We had alot of volunteers!! :) Thank you God for letting me be a part of something Amazing and is a blessing to so many.

My Heart

I already typed this up once and my connection got lost and the whole thing got lost, so I am not going to remember everything I wrote before but hopefully I will get the main point across.
Man looks at the outward appearance and God looks at the heart.

The real problem is who you are not what you face.

• What comes out when we get squeezed and crushed

This came out of some old notes of mine and it really got me thinking.....

What is in my heart? Does God have my heart completely? Am I holding anything back from God?

Well I know I would love to answer that God has my heart completely and I am not holding anything from Him. I would love to say that when I am squeezed and crushed God will flow out of me, but I can't say those things. And it is very hard for me to admit that.

I want be able to serve God with everything that is inside of me. I want to have a pure heart. That means giving up everything that is not pleasing to Him. My question is how do you give up something that you have held onto as long as you can remember? The only answer I know to that is......GOD!

I want to be able go the distance and do the things God has called me to do. I know that means I am going be tested and tested and tested because I will not walk in those things until God knows I am ready. So i want to get that point to whene I am squeezed and crushed, the only thing left to come out of me will be God's Holy Spirit. I don't want even one corner or crack to be filled with something other than Him. I know God is getting ready now. That is why..... I WILL NOT GIVE UP!

Empty me God! I want more of you and less of me.

Holy Fire burn away my desire of anything that is not of you and is of me! FILL ME WITH YOU!

What is in your heart?