So God is guiding me in a new direction and its really hard to grasp what i feel He is calling me to do. Never would i ever imagine myself in the position of a leader. But He is raising me up to be a leader of some sort and its really scary, but i have decided that I would go wherever He wanted and do whatever He wanted.
A little over 6 years ago is when i first got called to missions and I made a decision back then that I follow Him wherever He takes me. I also decided that i would go on short term mission trips every year until God called me to the next step of my journey. Because i didn't know exactly what He wanted me to do for missions, all I knew is that He gave me a heart to serve others in need and are hurting, so that is what I was going to do. I did that up until about a year ago, when God started tugging on my heart. He was ready for me to take my next step in the path He had made for me. So I knew it was getting closer to time of what God had called me to do, but I did not feel prepared enough. I decided to research programs that get you ready for ministry work and the mission field. Long story short I decided to come here and there was alot that happened in that decision, but that is not the reason I am writing this blog.
Coming here, I had in my mind that I would do the 2 years and then I would go out on the mission field over seas. Well "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord" and they were not my plans! My plans was to be a missionary overseas and that still may come, but for right now God is drawing me in new direction and that is to a missionary in my home town... (Atlanta, Ga.) I feel He is calling me to open a dream center there. I don't know when, but He is revealing bits in pieces to me at a time and it is looking like it is falling into place just how He planned it. Let me tell you it is really scary, because I do not feel capable at all of doing this and I know that is the whole point because if i was capable of it then I wouldn't need God. Its pretty cool because what I feel for overseas missions I am starting to feel for local missions and I never thought I feel as passionate as would overseas. But really where my passion is, is in outreach and you do outreach anywhere. I love showing God's love to people and catching them off guard. I just love to see people get blessed and to experience God's love especially for the first time! Man, i could go on for hours talking about this....you can ask my roommate Mary Beth. But I just wanted to share with everyone a little bit of what was on my heart. So I just ask that you keep me in your prayers that I don't back down no matter how unworthy I feel or how many times I feel like I can't do it, that I just continue to yield to the Holy Spirit and let Him guide me.
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