My Heart

I already typed this up once and my connection got lost and the whole thing got lost, so I am not going to remember everything I wrote before but hopefully I will get the main point across.
Man looks at the outward appearance and God looks at the heart.

The real problem is who you are not what you face.

• What comes out when we get squeezed and crushed

This came out of some old notes of mine and it really got me thinking.....

What is in my heart? Does God have my heart completely? Am I holding anything back from God?

Well I know I would love to answer that God has my heart completely and I am not holding anything from Him. I would love to say that when I am squeezed and crushed God will flow out of me, but I can't say those things. And it is very hard for me to admit that.

I want be able to serve God with everything that is inside of me. I want to have a pure heart. That means giving up everything that is not pleasing to Him. My question is how do you give up something that you have held onto as long as you can remember? The only answer I know to that is......GOD!

I want to be able go the distance and do the things God has called me to do. I know that means I am going be tested and tested and tested because I will not walk in those things until God knows I am ready. So i want to get that point to whene I am squeezed and crushed, the only thing left to come out of me will be God's Holy Spirit. I don't want even one corner or crack to be filled with something other than Him. I know God is getting ready now. That is why..... I WILL NOT GIVE UP!

Empty me God! I want more of you and less of me.

Holy Fire burn away my desire of anything that is not of you and is of me! FILL ME WITH YOU!

What is in your heart?

Desires and Passions

So after church today I just sat in my car at the apartment because I didn't feel like getting out in the rain yet. So I sat and pondered everything I had just heard in church service today and thought about all the things God has placed on my heart. So I started writing....

I want to to have a heart that is willing and obedient to go and do to whatever and wherever God calls me. I have no idea what the future holds for me. I do know that the desire that are on my heart are not just there to be there but I believe there will be day that I see each one of the things God has placed on my hear to come to pass.

I have a heart for nations and cities! I want to love on the orphans everywhere and help them find their heavenly father. I want to go to the forgotten and the places most are too afraid to go to. I want to see hope brought to the hopeless and Joy to the depressed. I want to see chains broken from people who have been bound since birth. I want to see people fight for the freedom they thought they could never have. I want to love on the hurting, poor, and lost. I want to walk in the Holy Spirit and I want the Holy Spirit to guide each step and word that comes from me. I want to walk with courage and boldness like never before. I want show God's children how beautiful He thinks they are. I want them to see themselves how God see them. I want to see Hope, Courage, Faith, Love, Joy, and Peace brought to God's children. I don't want to get in the way of what God wants to do through me. I want to go the distance. And I want to go even when I'm scared.

I don't know what the future holds for me but I do know that it is not going to be no ordinary life with an ordinary job. :) God knows the desires of my heart and He knows I love an Adventure! :) Here I am Lord, send me!!

What I am learning...

Would I be found guilty of prayer and worship to God?
When God test our faith He often puts us in situations where we can't find any other way out but Him. -No Escape
I can not forget about the power of God. When we are obedient and trust God He wil show up.
The inexcapable platform of pain provides the undeniable proof of faith. God can bring us through unhurt.

Wow... God is...undescribable. There are never any words that can truly describe Him. Why do we so often decide not to trust Him? We have seen so many times before that He takes care of it all even better than what we had in mind. Sometimes we even find ourselves trusting strangers before we trust God.. what is up with that?

Stand up person in a Bow down World

Alright, this was sermon that was preached awhile back and it is a good one too...

Fear can play a part of living for God or bowing down to something else. There is always a second, third, and fourth chance to compromise. Are you going to take those chances? Here are some examples...

1. We can't let ourselves get killed. Will you deny Christ if it meant you would lose your life if you didn't? God has the expiration date not man.
2. This is a foreign land. Even though they have a different culture and different beliefs will you change yours to show respect to them or will you stay true to yours? There is always a line to be crossed.
3. Lets bow down and not mean it. Bowing down is a sign of surrender. God is a jealous God.
4. Just do it one time. That one time opens a door for the enemy to come in.

Fear the eternal fire rather than fearing the temporary fire. Let your faith be fireproof! Worship God while you are in the fire.

Deliverance came through trusting. There is no other God who can deliver like our God.

What you see...

Ministry is about what you see.
Are you going to see it the first time? You are going to have to see past the natural and see it right away. Your definition of ministry is going to be tested. You can no longer look at things in the natural, you have to look with spiritual eyes. Not everyone is going to see what you see. They are not going to see what God has shown you. But you cannot let that take away what God has showed you. Just keep praying that God sees it and try to see it like God sees it. I want to see things through His eyes. You also have to be careful of getting tunnel vision and take a step back so that you can see beyond what is in front of you. God is much bigger than just what is in front of you.

This was a message preached awhile back, almost a year ago. It still speaks to me. I so want to be able to see things they way God sees them. I want to see myself how He sees me as well as others. I want to look at God's children as He looks upon them. I know I will always be tested because I have chosen to follow God. Therefore the enemy will bring all kinds of tricks my way to try to trap me in confusion, blindness, and worryiness of what God can actually do in and through me.

Epic Worship Album

The new Healing Place Church album is here . . .EPIC WORSHIP! It was a LIVE recording from the Amplified weekend. The new album contains 13 original songs that can be found at the HPC online store. Check it out on HPC's website or itunes! I really do love the Album!! :)

Who Am I?

O.k. so I came across this in my journal today and I just felt like putting in a blog because it is so bold!

1. Who am I?
- I am a child of God
- I am a daughter of the Kind
- I am LOVED by my Father
- I am a princess
* She is selected
* Held in high regard
- I am a warrior
* We have to fight for God, family, and friends
- I am a fighter
* We can't give up on our calling
- I am a servant
- I am a follower of Christ

Wow.... There is more in the journal entry but I just wanted write about this for now. I mean that is some pretty bold stuff, don't you think? Why can we not walk in that kind of authority everyday of our life? God says we are these things so why don't we walk in these things? I want to be that warrior, fighter, servant, princess that God has called me to be! I want to fight for what I believe in! I want to follow Christ with everything that is inside of me! I want to fully except the LOVE the God has freely given to me! I'm sorry God! For not excepting your gifts! Why won't I except them? I want them..... I desire them.... something is still keeping me from excepting them fully though.