Stolen Joy

It is scary how fast the enemy can steal joy from you. He did it to me just last night. In a matter of minutes I was back in my past. I allowed the enemy to play with my mind and thoughts. I was back in his playground. He had complete control of my thoughts.

How? How did that happen so fast? How can I stop that from ever happening again?

I must be firmly planted in the word of God. I must be able to recognize his tricks and the negative thoughts that are planted by the enemy. Speak truth over the lies the enemy has fed me. I am more than a conquerer in Christ who gives me strength. I have to remember the call on my life and remember God's grace.
The enemy knows when to attack, he knows when you are most vulnerable. He knows what to use against us because he studies our ways and our insecurites.
We have to know when we are most vulnerable, so that can be ready at all times for an attack. The enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy. But God has given a way out from the enemies traps. His way out is His truth.
This is what I would do. I will become more planted in God's word and know His truth. I will know when I am vulnerable and know when it is the enemy feeding me lies. I know my call and remember God's grace and mercy.
The enemy will not steal my joy again. I will not let him!!!

"For I know the plans, 'declares the Lord,' planse to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

Windows

I love it when God allows us to see little windows of our life. He allows us to see were we are now and how far we have come. I love those moments when I can see where I would have acted differently in certain situations than I do now. God gave me several windows today, where I saw that I have grown. Sometimes we forget how far God has brought and that is God has to remind us time to time. God has brought me very far. He is still doing a new work in me everyday. He doesn't have to the things He does. He is so gracious. Thank for sticking with me and not giving up on me even when I gave up on myself. He has brought me through tough times and gave me an amazing hope for the future. His Love gives you a hope for things that you on your own would never think was possible.
It is so cool to know that the best is yet to come! I have no idea what I will be doing in my life even 3 weeks from now. I do know that whatever it is it will be amazing because I serve an amazing God and if I am being used by Him in the littlest way it will be amazing. I do not remember the last time I had this much joy for this long. It is all because of His mercy that I am able to experience such great joy!
I can do anything if I have God in me and beside me. I no longer have fear of the unknown. I know if God calls me to it then He believes in me and who am I to doubt what God believes!
I stumble at times but I get right back up. In the past I would dwell on all the mistakes I make, but I have learned that does nothing but hinder ms from making things better. I know I will continue to mistakes but I know who to turn to first now and that is God. He always picks me up when I fall, forgives me, and tells me to keep going. He doesn't take away your gifts or what He has called you to just because you mess up. He knows you will mess up before you do. He uses the messed up sometimes. :) He did throughout scripture, why not now? I just don't want myself to get in the way of Him using me, like it did with Moses. God wanted to use Moses to speak to Pharoh but Moses did t think He was capable because he couldn't speak clearly. God knew about his speech impedament and He wanted to use him anyway. Moses didn't think God was big enough though. God still used Moses but He might used him alot more if Moses had believed he could Have been used more. I want to be used by God in the way He wants to use me despite my insecurities. God is much bigger than any insecurity I
have. I dont want have the regret of wandering of what could have happened if I allowed God to fully use the first time He calls me.
If you do read my blog I want to pray that God will give me wisdom over these next few weeks and that I will hear His voice clearly. I want to go and do whatever He says, so I have to be able to discern His voice from others. Let it not be mans, the enemy, or my own voice but Gods that I follow. Thank you for reading what is on my heart. :)

Nearing the end of this season...

Hey guys sorry it has been so long since the last time I wrote anything. I do not have internet at the apartment and so that means I would have go out of my way to go write a blog and well. Lol. I'm just not a blogger unless I have alot on my mind or alot to say. So I guess tonight is one of those nights.
So I'm in the last month of this season of my life. I have no idea what is going to happen in a month from now none the less a few weeks from now. I do have some thought and ideas, but like I have said before it is all up to God and what He has for me. It is exciting and nerve racking at the same time. It is for sure an adrenaline rush. I know that whatever it is will be an exciting next season of my life. I love this part of my life. I love living life with God totally in control of my life. He is directing the sails of my boat. I can not think of a better way to live my life. Yes, I do have worries at times but when those worries come I try my best to replace them with God's word. If I have learned anything here it has been the only way you can defeat a negative thought is with the word of God.
My heart is to reach God's people anyway that I am capable. God has blessed me with the ability to move from place to place. I used to hate that my father was in the military and that we had to move around growing up but now I view it as a blessing because He was just preparing me for what He had for me in the future. I want to travel the world and share God's love to all His children. Not only has God has blessed me with the love of traveling He has also blessed me the thrill of adventure. I love that God can use anyone to do much greater things than themselves. He is a huge God! I am ready for my next adventure, wherever that may be! He is so GOOD to Me! I LOVE YOU GOD! I know that sounds cheezy but I don't care anymore, I really don't! I want to see the world the way God sees the world. I want to love the way God loves. He is such a gracious God!
Please pray that I will have wisdom in approaching the decisions for my next adventure. Pray that I truly hear God and that I will fully obey Him. Thanks for hearing me out and thank you so much for your prayers! You are an Awesome person for reading this. :)